Expressed

So here I am again. Tonight I feel that we both have grown, More or less we understand more about each other and I’ve learn to do the things I do the right way. Strangely it always come s to this I guess I’ll work on that again.

So bottom line, I have proved again my ability to understand human mind and well Her mind. It feels good to understand her. Hope her bitch Side is not too hurt that I broke the spell. Hope after this it will be on the road to Forever. I know I may not sound it but I do feel guilty that you are not hurting like this is not every day I get to finally hear everything from you, even thought I most of the things you say about me it still hurts coming from you. Maybe it will help me on my way? Why knows but I can say that I really really want us to work and I believe that we can work.

Anyway I think I found a way to bring us all together and hopefully we can all work together to help each other. This shall be my side project to help all of my friends that I really care about and hopefully combine them together as a big group. Hope I can manage tgt with my school work.

Ciao people

Love Part 1

I find it strange that I am able to understand you one moment and the next you changed and I don’t see you anymore. To you your thoughts may be crystal clear but for us who has no worms in your brain we can’t read u 100% no matter how good I am. But here is what I observe.

When u try and put yourself in others shoe and can’t understand why they feel that way you list as it’s that person’s fault he/she is being a bitch/bastard . You; not understanding why she keeps thinking of that guy and want him back are the same as others not understanding why you want me back.

You don’t spare time to put yourself in others shoes cause u think he/she is not thinking straight and will pass after a while.

You say they push u away. You seen so many emotional tweets don’t u know that people push u away to see if you would take time and effort to stay. P.S. it does not apply to RS as RS is a joke if u push each other away to see if they come back, you might as well buy a dog and teach it to fetch.

You think too much resulting in you over thinking and stressing yourself out and things start going bad and you build the stress up. Talk to other people or whoever you trust.

If he gives bad advice, WHY EVEN BOTHER. Just ask him listen and then shut up; it is better than thinking weather the advice is right this time. People who can’t handle themselves won’t be able to handle others.

I have to admit in failing as your boyfriend. I don’t seem to be able to guide you along and worst of all I am usually the cause of all your trouble and tears which I’m very displeased about… I can imagine people nodding and going “Ya man you fucking dumbass I can do better” well seriously if u think u are that awesome go find your own and stop bugging other’s there is a line to draw between caring and “SELF PROCLAIM BOYFRIEND”. I think at this point I should really reflect on the things I’ve done right and done wrong and if you could help me along that will be awesome and we can both strive on. Love is not about the right time place people. It’s about how hard you want it to be right but even if it fails both parties have tried and they won’t feel indebt to each other and could remain as friends and continue helping each other find their love. It only ends with strangers with memories if a party did not try hard at all and feel awkward as he/she feel indebted to the other party. But still this is my take on why people end up strangers and I hope I don’t have to go down this road. 

STUPID ME IS STUPID :P

You Can Say I’m Dumb, You can call her un-understanding but what if it’s something deeper. I don’t know why we fight at all… maybe I’m just that stupid and dun understands that that’s what she wants…

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

This is so deep and seriously I bet we all ask that question sometimes is it time to go or should I stay. I see no point in asking that question. If u ever want it that badly you would have put in a lot of effort to understand and learn to put yourself in his/her shoe.

I don’t know if I’m that hard to understand or what… There are people that understand me well. One top of my list is YUANYI. Whoever is surprised high five! I was surprised too and it’s a good surprised. I was shock when he sends me a long message suddenly one day. He was able to clearly and correctly label why I am so in love with writing music and singing songs doing covers. It was so awesome and shocking and it worried me that something had happened to shock him like that. Ha-ha turns out something did happen but I guess he recovered.

I remember the times where I really did not feel belong to this group of people and he won’t let me go every time it’s really due to his freakishly stubbornness that I didn’t go into a nose dive. Others helped too they made me  feel the love and warmth of humanity and family warmth and those who gave me a chance to help u or listen to your problems.Thank you SO SO MUCH

To the other people in my life you are not specially mention because I believe I told you a lot of times already how important you are to me and how glad I am to have you in my live. I guess YUANYI deserves special mention and hope you guys agree. Once again IM SORRY for not mentioning you awesome people here bare with me kays.

And to you. I really really am glad that you are willing to come into my life and regrets every and anytime I knowingly and unknowingly hurt you. I sorry I can’t be every or anything like the Guys in shows or stories. I’m not that awesome. I’m just that dumb sadly and I can never be able to smoothly share my problems with you. I’m just that introvert its annoying I know and I’m really glad that you putted up with that for so long it’s amazing and every day I wish u had met someone better, no matter how hard I try I think it will be impossible for me to match up to your expectation. I have too much flaws and being under confident introvert don’t help much. I won’t be mad or anything but the only thing I can promise I can make is that I’ll try…

If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me. I’ll meet you when my choirs are through. I don’t know how long that will be. But I won’t let you down, darling wait and see.

Lost...

Mega Lost At What To Write Here Anymore Haha I Guess I lost Interest In This Super Fast.
Well not feeling against anything strongly this few days so most likely want be anything new in awhile I’ll be just posting random stuff around this space!

Let’s just put it that I am adjusting to my new school quickly and Im lucky cause my CA (Class Adviser) is very much like my Secondary Form Teacher Miss Wati. They are both very energetic and tries to bring joy to my class. They both like to talk about everything and everything except the lesson, but strangely they are able to get through to us.

This really made me miss secondary school though… Miss all the times I had with my friends even though I made new ones they can never amount to the old ones I have the feeling of seeing familiar faces around the corner and what not. People have not been hostile to me but still that feeling of not belonging still lingers a bit.

My class is fun and the jokers are surfacing so it should be a fun year but putting that aside my CA foreseen that our batch GPA have to be around 4 to successfully get into poly without appeal. With my Class being O lvl math’s failures we all can study and competition will be stiff. ITE is so different attendance is everything and you will only get all the extra lesson and attachments if the CA likes you. This is so freaking new and very very stressful…

Till next time

Terance(kira)

Hunted...

HAIZ tired of life and its joke. I mean seriously if Im that kind of person then forget it la, nothing i say will change what u think of me...
AND YOU I NEVER EVER THOUGHT U WILL HURT ME LIKE THAT.
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P.S Working on my Korean... Coming along smoothly 

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HELLO PEEPS

First a great big sincere SORRY to my readers(Oh Who Am I Kidding I only Have You 4/5 ppl Reading So LALA~). Anyway if you all don't already know I wasn't reporting in as I had a Big keyboard problem so now that its fixed I should be reporting in to you peeps regularly HEHE. WELL IM IN ITECC EVM if u dont know what that is well... www.google.com.sg is a great place to start. Shall Talk about that in another post. So how is everyone? If u have not heard #prayforboston and #PrayForAfghanistan is on try to keep up and no dont trust RED CROSS donation cause 

"@AnarchoAnon @redcross @occupy_boston Red Cross pocketed hundreds of millions in donations from the past three natural disasters. SCUMBAGS!"

"@AnarchoAnon @redcross @occupy_boston Don't donate to the Red Cross - We're still waiting for them in Rockaway Beach since Hurricane Sandy."

http://beforeitsnews.com/conspiracy-theories/2013/04/facebook-page-set-up-for-boston-marathon-bombings-days-before-boston-marathon-bombings-2450056.html

This is really shameful and untrust worthy for a  organisation so big people are looking to you for help. On the Afghanistan story read Here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-125820/US-bomb-kills-30-Afghan-wedding.html....

Im sure our hearts go out to all who are affected and may you all stay together and pull through this safe and sound. Lastly may those responsible gets caught...