Trust? Courage? Love?

So following my rant I was reading up on war stories and stuff and glad to find myself a coward. Glad cause well heck Im bloody glad I don't have to go thru that but half the things they did would I do them? Could I actually jump on top of a grenade to save my team? Would I lead the charge and boost my teams moral? Dare I drop my weapon and fly the flag? I won't have the guts to do most things but that's me before. NCC improved a lot about myself. Being a team player is important and respecting each other is always the top of the list. I was in a group full of Malays and (I'm not being racist here everybody does this) they spoke in their own language which I'm fine with as long as somebody is willing to translate. In a way I could have asked them to speak in English but lets face it the respect is already lost. This is a important factor in a team and I learn the hard way how it feels like being ostracise. It may not be a huge issue in SG but other countries may not be as nonchalant.

Things I find in people I trust. Loyalty. I don't need a human dog but as long as you are loyal to the group its all good I don't need you to be a scape goat or cut off your hand but never bully your own friends never betray the group and never ever backstab your friends. Respect. I need you to respect all things woman and animals are two top for me. I have since dunno when stood up for the weak or those who are unable to defend themselves. I know how it feels like and the struggle they go through it feels only right that I take the heat off from them onto me. I have a strong support that they may not have. Never disrespect females(two timing beating etc) and don't you fucking dare hurt any animal.
Backbone/self awareness? Never ever steal your friend's girl/guy. Its fine when you care about him/her but when the problem starts coming and they start looking to you for everything always divert them back to their halfs. Nearly fell into this one. One day it just boom to me "wow you are better them my bf" I nearly fell off my chair.  I replied " No? whenever you complain I'll ask what's going on and shit cause I hardly talk to you solving/talking bout your problems keep our friendship close if you think I'm better just because of this then you need to reevaluate your meaning of love. If you say I care more then that's a lie. I just ask the right question at the right time. Always ask them to talk to their partner. Girls! sometimes the guy is just lost on what to say to calm you down, either 1 of you just say I'm sorry for shouting or whatever and talk about it calmly. Most of the time its just stress/small stupid things and those girls that need the bf 24/7 you really need a hobby that DOES NOT involve other guys.

Its not fair to kill it when he is slugging his guts off for your future and you go for the guy that satisfy your present. Learn to look into the future. Both of you dating with a normal job from 9-5? You only can meet for dinner? Unless you guys are staying tgt people go through that for 5/6 years of dating to see if they can handle everything and if you need him 24/7 you need to find a guy rich as fuck to run to you whenever you cry.

Finally consistency. I wont bet my life on you if you say you sing and then you stop doing it cause you hella ugly and then go train your body but got lazy and decide to rot and then suddenly go back to music. If you wanna pin me you wont get a chance. Music have been a part of me since I understand words. I may have stops here and there but the passion burns. I stand by my own music and even if I never really did release it its cause it wasn't perfect. I have not enf talent to fused the melody with accompany back track and my voice isn't out of this world so I cover others and hopefully grow my voice.

Just thoughts from my head