For like the infinite time....
Yea back to blogging cause I'm getting real bad. Have to get myself updated I guess or I'll lose track of everything. Things have been really busy, kinda miss complain to someone about all this crap so here I am talking to the wall. Doubt people read this anyway so I can go crazy with it.
School
Things are starting to get crazy and really just trying to keep track of all my projects and not messing them up or I'll seriously feel like I'm losing control and that is like the one thing I really need right now. Class has been ok I guess not much going on now, everybody just wanna do well for this term and get the best grade they can and I guess its sort of a good thing? I dunno lets keep walking down the road.
Going for NDP and F1 for Extra hours cause I need the money and NDP gets me some points stuff which is helpful to get me into Poly I guess.
Friends
We are fine just really crazy on pokemon and Warframe. I guess it helps get the stress off and reduce my physical stress and stuff but I still need to get rid of my mental stress and I don't seem to be able to do that recently. Guess I need to talk to someone or something soon. The rest of them have much to settle and I dun feel like burdening them. Guys having talks are just really horrible haha so lets throw that out the window. I'm not saying that my dudes cant listen and stuff but lets just say guys dun really do late night talk bout life. Jo have enough stuff to settle and I wish I could cut her some slack but you know what they say, If you cant swim that well dun try to save a drowning person, rn I cant only try draining the water outta her boat how to patch it up is up to her. Kerst I am like at a total loss. Sometimes its this guy sometimes its that. If you are reading this post dun get offended kays its like the truth. ( At least the truth for now) That's why I dun even try to help you, cause I dunno where to start and you dunno what you want so I guess that's that, but I'll still try my best to cheer her up. Yue is worrying cause it seems like she is acting up again. Feel better that she lets me know but I dunno what to say. We are stuck on the same kind of shitty boat but we are two different kind of captain. Taurus can be a real pain in the ass sometimes but she is a really good buddy and friend. People should learn to treasure this gem. Its good to have two Taurus ramming this Big O Leo sometimes to get me back on track / pop my ego balloons. Kim is like attached and I dun wanna rely too much on her ya know what I mean? Would really like to see them last forever they are like perf couple even tho nothing is perfect they are able to maintain their LDR really well. I guess distance does make the heart grow fonder.
Hey
How is it going? Ya alright? How's your health? Hold on kays! One day, someone will come and help you fix everything. You won't feel lonely anymore and everything will work out. Well that is what I tell myself anyway. It helps... sometimes to stop the pain and missing. Take care of yourself alright. Feel so safe that you know yue.
Anyway had a sudden urge to go soup spoon today (27/05) hopefully I get to get this weekend, Astons is next and some other perhaps. *If you still care, all our 230311 have been washed off kinda sad when I went that but I picked myself up after awhile. There is still one lone survival tho haha I like to think that as me. Faded but not gone. Not yet.
